You give your all. You give your all in EVERYTHING, you give
your all to EVERYONE. No wonder how you end up so empty.
You don’t want to feel the way you feel, because it feels
lonely.
You don’t want to ask those questions and although you know
they have no answer, they just can’t get off of you mind.
Sometimes it hurts so much that you just lose your compus
and it feels like there are no rules anymore, there are no right or wrong, no
land, no sky, no north and no south.
And you want to get out of this darkness but nobody
understands, nobody feels what you feel. They just see your confusion and tell
you “stop hurting, why are you doing this to yourself?”.
You wish you could just for one second, one freeking
miserable second just touch them and make them feel exactly what you feel, see
this world as you see.
Someone once told, for those who wanted to hear, “Intelligent
girls are often depressed, because they know what the world is really like”.
And I think of how I wanted you not no know the world as it really is. Because
in your eyes I can see how sad it is and it makes me sick.
I may not be abble to see what you see but I can promise I
will be here, like a blind man, trying to guide you in how to draw.
Natal 2014
