Purpose, where the hell are you?

Its hard.... its hard when you are not the person you want to be.
I wonder if there is anyone in the universe that is actually exactly what he/she wants to be. Maybe people just go bye... accepting what they are and not questioning it.
I desperately want, no, need, to be more! 
I want to be better, better for everyone but specially better for myself. I want to make people laugh, I want to make people feel okay, I want to make a difference, to be needed and to change something in someone. To feel that I have a purpose. 
I don't feel I have any purpose right now and I just don't want to live life like this, I need to find my purpose, I need to feel it. 

Porto, 17.02.2017